Homosexuality has been like a Zen riddle. The riddle was: How do I deal with my homosexuality? Do I accept it or reject it or freak out, or do I go into it and find out what it is? Another problem: Is it something public? Anything that common is public; anything that happens to us is as good or bad as anything else as a subject for poetry. It’s actual. So I can write naturally about my own homosexuality. The poems get misinterpreted as promotion of homosexuality. Actually, it’s more like promotion of frankness, about any subject. If you’re a foot fetishist, you write about feet; or if you’re a stock-market freak, you can write about the rising sales-curve erections in the Standard Oil chart. When a few people get frank about homosexuality in public, it breaks the ice; then anybody can be frank about anything. That’s socially useful.

FROM THE PLAYBOY INTERVIEW WITH ALLEN GINSBERG

It’s taken me so long to accept myself, even though I have always known I was gay. My greatest joy has been giving into homosexuality and released my true nature. It has been the best decision I ever made accepting myself for who and what I am. I am a homosexual man and just wish I had accepted it year’s ago.

Tyler

5 thoughts on “A Zen Riddle?

  1. I had a hard time accepting my homosexuality. I married a woman twenty years ago. At the time I thought I was bisexual, although she didn’t know it. But over the past 5 years or so, I’ve come to realize that I’m a homosexual. I only masturbate to men, my only fantasies are men, even when I have sex with my wife.
    I started watching gay porn a few years ago and I had never been so turned on. I also sucked a few cocks in college, but I thought I was just experimenting. But it wasn’t. I loved sucking cock. Homosexuality wasn’t as accepted at the time(late 80’s). During college, I did have several girl friends that questioned my sexuality. I would always pretend to get offended. In reality I was relieved that they might know. I even had a friend that told me “ I know you’re gay.” I asked her how she knew. She said there’s something about the way you act when hot guys are around!!
    Finally in my late 40’s I began to accept the cock lover I am. I have embraced my love for the masculine! As of now, my wife still doesn’t know, but I think she suspects. I’m hoping to soon open up to her.

    1. Lol! Your life is getting ready
      To change. I agree, I was married 25 years. Struggled through most of it and knew other married buds.
      It’s ok if it’s just sex, but I love a man and we are happy.
      You know you will be happier, I am.

  2. It’s taken me so long to accept myself, even though I have always known I was gay. My greatest joy has been giving into homosexuality and released my true nature. It has been the best decision I ever made accepting myself for who and what I am. I am a homosexual man and just wish I had accepted it year’s ago.

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